A magical day

Our feelings were completely understandable, justifiable and kept us in our smallness.  Hurt feelings, lost trust, the same boy, a tragic disease and a bundle of horrific experiences are the foundation of our newfound friendship.  She ended up in the same hotel room as me, shocked and taken off guard I behaved badly while she showed me kindness.  I was stubborn, selfish and rude to her.  The next day I reflected on the experience, what right did I have to treat another person badly?  I didn't have any right, God knows I have behaved terribly and made epic mistakes time and time again, I felt very embarrassed, ashamed and sad that I was ignorant enough to believe it was okay at the time... it clearly wasn't.  I mustered up the courage to make a phone call after much thought, I wasn't sure what to say?  How would she react?  I would understand if she hung up on me, or didn't answer.  Bracing myself I made the call, it went to her voice mail.  My heart was racing trying to put together words of sincerity before the beep.  How would I approach it?  I never leave messages I  am terrible at it, I usually stutter and go on and on and on.  So naturally she could hear my nerves on her voicemail asking if she would like to be my friend?  She called back shortly we chatted for a bit, it was awkward, special, humbling, nerve wrecking and exciting.  I didn't see any reason for there to be ill feelings between us and neither did she.  We decided to keep in touch and to spend time getting to know eachother.  This friendship would take extra effort, it took us both swalllowing our pride, forgiving one another for the hurt we had caused, we loved the same boy.  We clearly had something in common. It was months later that we finally got together.  It was two days ago and I have to say it was a most magical day.  We talked about life, cancer, boys, love, our secrets, what we knew of eachother through mutual friends (we actually knew quite a bit) and drinks turned into an all night all day adventure.  This angel introduced me to her friends and let me into her life without reservation.  All of us slept in a queen size bed and snuggled up to eachother, we laughed, dressed up in wigs and ate almond butter sandwiches.  I left the next day and on the drive home I kept smiling, thinking how happy I was to have met another wonderful person and through her I met plenty more.  I had just lost a friend, my Kars passed away on Monday and I hadn't felt like myself.  She got me out of my head and showed me love which was just what I needed.  When I woke up that morning I didn't expect anything extraordinary out of my day... It was magical to feel love when I needed it most by someone who had every reason to with hold it from me.  Lesson learned.  It made me think, how many people have I missed out on because of petty misunderstandings, and grudges?  It really only hurts me in the end to hold onto it.  Thanks darling for giving me the opportunity to learn, to get out of my head...