Famed Novelist Saul Bellow once declared, "You never have to change anything you got up in the middle of the night to write." and he won a Nobel prize.

Almost all these writings came to me in the middle of the night, so i don't correct them even if they ought to be corrected.  I like them raw, organic. i can honestly say their is no bullshit and rarely a spell check done and that is what makes it perfect to me. People are comfortable, okay with what they know. it is the unknown that really makes them weary, freaks them out.  Being around happy people for example is easy, you know what to say, how to act, and you can most likely predict their actions.  It's like blinders, the things the horses wear.  They keep all out of sight so one single task can be accomplished. heaven forbid we see outside our reality and are startled and thrown off course a bit. If it is not in our view we simply push on without questioning anything really keeping ourselves from developing further.  Tis worse I'm afraid if the unknown does make it into our line of sight because we are left to tell the story, to attempt to grasp something we known nothing about?  Suicide attempts for example, I don't look the stereotype, nor act it. So when my erratic behaviour comes on people get scared and don't know what to do.  Uneducated guesses becoming fact, gossip spreading quicker than any plague becuase fear of the unknown scares us all.  Ignorance is bliss right? We cause most of the lies that infect our society by need to have a story, by needing something to be explained, having to have the answer.  Could we lack the humility that we don't know all and that is totally okay?  We dig our own emotional graves and doom our relationships by assuming, by putting together stories to suffice our minds, to justify our actions, so ultimately we can feel in control of our lives and sleep at night.  Thus our loves transform to tragedies for the sake of being right and making sense of a situation with all the wrong facts. Pride could very well be our downfall.